Avoidance isn't the answer. It's time to bear hunt.

Recovery is a tricky thing. You may be making progress with your eating—whether you are working to overcome binge eating, anorexia or bulimia—but may be fooled into believing that you’ve truly normalized  your relationship with food. It may feel like you’ve largely recovered; you’ve started to include ice cream (but only when you’re out, never keeping it in the house). And your binge frequency is close to zero. And surely you who’ve been restricting deserve credit for eating more than you used to—at least of the foods you deem good for you.

But consider this:

No, avoidance isn't the answer.

• Is it really recovery when the only way you feel in control is to fill your days with so much activity (no, not even physical activity) that you don't get to sit with your feelings? You work long hours waitressing, take on extra shifts or extend your work hours only to avoid being with yourself. You struggle to allow yourself to feel hungry—fearing you're not trustworthy to respond correctly. You equally fear fullness, that satisfying feeling of truly getting enough. Would you allow your best friend to carry on this way?

• Is it really recovery when you stop binging, only to restrict your food intake? You stick around family or friends because you know you'd never binge in their presence, but you also struggle to eat enough when they're around—and even when they’re not. If your child see-sawed between binge eating and restricting her food intake, would you say “that's just fine”?

It doesn't have to be so scary.

• Is it truly changing your relationship with food when your solution for managing chocolate cake—or your favorite flavor ice cream or bread or peanut butter—is to simply never have it around? You forbid yourself access—just for now, until you meet your weight goal, or maybe believing you’ll resist these for the rest of your life. Would you suggest this to your parent, or would you hope that life could be much better for them?

• Are you really recovering when the only way to nourish yourself (yes, I know some of you struggle with this loaded expression which implies self care in its fullest sense) is by keeping everything the same, limiting your food choices to just a few "safe" foods? Or, by weighing and measuring all of your food? No, not just for now, but forever? What would you say to your partner if he or she kept to the same restricted allowance, an even number of items to be comfortably ritually consumed, day after day after day?

Time to start living again.

• How normal is your eating if you rely on counting your calories, or your points a la weight watchers? Or if you can't release yourself from exercising when your intake exceeds your ideal or your self-prescribed amount?

Can you truly recover? Absolutely!

Full recovery requires feeling—not avoidance of hunger and fullness. Detaching yourself from these physical sensations, like avoidance of all feelings—sadness, disappointment, fear, hopelessness—only prolongs your suffering (while admittedly for a moment it seems like the only way to get through). Avoiding feeling by numbing out with your eating or your not eating, serves a purpose. But let’s not forget that you lose out on life’s positive emotions and experiences, too.

It requires “Going on a bear hunt” so to speak—a reference to Rosen and Oxenbury’s children’s book I loved to read when my kids were very young.

"We're going to catch a big one. / What a beautiful day! / We're not scared. / Oh-oh! Grass! / Long, wavy grass. / We can't go over it. / We can't go under it. / Oh, no! / We've got to go through it!" The family skids down a grassy slope, swishes across a river, sludges through mud and, of course, finally sees the bear…”

It takes trudging through all the uncomfortable challenges—with support, of course—in order to get past your fears. Like the very young kids, you might (at first) run away when you face the bear. But with some work (perhaps there needs to be a part 2 to this classic), you’ll be embracing it and feeling all the better for it.

There’s more to life than yearning for foods you enjoy yet avoid, or regretting the little you did eat. Or struggling after a binge—an inevitable consequence of days, weeks or a lifetime of rigid diet rules, of avoiding eating enough.

You deserve better. Really you do.  I don’t mean to minimize any progress you’ve made. I simply want to urge caution to be on guard for those sneaky eating disordered thoughts and actions. So please consider reaching out to take the next step to push through—to change your thoughts, your feelings and your eating. Push through the tall grasses and the mud. And conquer the bear.

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Perhaps you CAN rise above the clouds.

I don’t know the Harvard psychologist Dr. Sheila Reindl, but I have recommended her book Sensing the Self, many, many times over the years. It’s filled with wisdom about recovery from bulimia, honed from Reindl’s extensive interviews with 13 recovered women. (Not bulimic? Please read on! There’s something here for you too!)  Maybe I was attracted to it having learned that several of the pseudonym-ed women were actually past patients of mine, shared with a therapist who contributed these cases to the book. 

Or maybe that it meshed research with patient stories, extracting the essence of the recovery process into meaningful chapter themes. Personally, I hate reading books about recovery (but I read this at the insistence of a patient). That likely has mostly to do with the fact that I discuss recovery almost 40 hours a week. Do I really want to engage with strangers’ stories on my down time? I don’t think so.

Yet I likely suggest it because I believe it may help readers with recovery. Just as I recommend Schaefer’s fabulous Life Without Ed and Arnold’s blog ED-Bites—long before it became chock full of valuable research interpreted into a language we can all understand.

I don’t know if reading recovery stories truly makes a difference in the recovery process—for better or for worse. But I’d like to find out! Because I’d like to have another tool available to help support recovery.

Can recovery stories show us the way?

Enter Lisa Dawson, an Aussie PhD candidate who has the very same goal and is doing the research to find the answers—and I really hope you will help! You may remember her name from previous research I referenced. Here’s the description of her research:

Researchers at the University of Sydney are interested in whether reading stories of recovery are helpful for current sufferers of anorexia nervosa. People aged 18 years or over who have anorexia nervosa or an eating disorder similar to anorexia nervosa are invited to participate. This study is conducted entirely online so anyone in the world can participate. Participation involves completing questionnaires on two or three occasions and reading five short stories about recovery. We are very interested in receiving your feedback about the helpfulness of the stories.

The study has been approved by the University of Sydney Ethics Committee and all aspects of the study, including results, are strictly confidential. We are hoping to have as many people as possible take part in the study. If you are interested in participating then please contact Lisa at lisa.dawson@sydney.edu.au.

So if you have a few moments, please email Lisa to learn more. And say hello for me!

Thanks for helping. Oh, and PLEASE share this any way you can!

Smart. Easy-to-handle. Attractive.

And practical minded too. Will do it all but cook for you.

I'm talking about my new book, “Food to Eat, guided, hopeful, and trusted recipes for eating disorder recovery”.

Lori Lieberman, RD, CDE, MPH, LDN, and Cate Sangster may seem like unlikely coauthors. Lori, a 26-year veteran of eating disorder counseling and a blog author in the Boston, Massachusetts area and Cate, a soon-to-be-published coauthor (with eating disorder author June Alexander), and recovering adult anorexic in Melbourne, Australia created a novel recovery tool. Part cookbook, part CBT-styled guidance and support, this book gently and thoughtfully assists readers, allaying their fears and misconceptions they may be ruminating over when contemplating eating.

It addresses head on the barriers to change, including perception and fear of nutrient content, GI issues and the consequences of change. Nutrition myths are broken down and justification and support for renourishing is provided.  It builds on a transference of trust like that which propelled Cate forward in her own recovery—from connecting with Lori's writing and learning, for the first time, that recovery is possible, to moving to increasing her own range of foods consumed beginning with this project collaboration.

No, it's not out yet, but it's coming soon, and Cate and I are so excited to share it with you. “Food To Eat” will be available as an ebook and in print—details to follow.

We've gotten enthusiastic thumbs up from eating disorder professionals, and valuable input from those struggling with eating disorders and disordered eating to help us perfect it.

We'll keep you posted when it's ready for release!