tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post4691297388374541573..comments2024-03-04T00:43:25.831-08:00Comments on Drop It and Eat: Drop the Diet, Manage Your Weight: Isn't it Time to be Angry?HikerRDhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/15170145903147301280noreply@blogger.comBlogger14125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-63209417648293379982012-10-09T11:48:33.635-07:002012-10-09T11:48:33.635-07:00Yes, her words are quite powerful--as are yours in...Yes, her words are quite powerful--as are yours in response! Hope this motivates you and others toward health.HikerRDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15170145903147301280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-76325811395722592952012-10-09T09:52:34.006-07:002012-10-09T09:52:34.006-07:00My...Thank you for sharing your incredibly powerfu...My...Thank you for sharing your incredibly powerful, brave soul-baring post..You have done more than you know to provide those of us in a similar "place"..that anger has its place...if it is used as a wake-up call to resist the sirens of ED and to reach out towards "normalcy"..as elusive or foreign as that seems.<br /><br />I am struggling to pull myself out of a personal relapse (so in agreement about the anorexic reaction to "relapse is normal"!..We so latch onto this as an "excuse" to stay in the anorexic identity we have established for ourselves..as if it were our "job" to stay within those sick guidelines and keep "the label"...for fear of (re) discovering joy and thinking outside of the tiny, isolating box that IS the reality of an eating disorder. For myself, I realise more and more that Ed removes any forward motion..mental, but over the years..physical as well. It stops one from having to fully inhabit one's world. It is evasion ..of life...of realities, responsibilities...everything. It is deciding that truly living is too difficult or anxiety-provoking..so we "retreat" to what we know..what we do best...Focusing on something as "minute" as to how far our ribs stick out..or whether we can encircle our thighs with our two hands touching is far easier than thinking about our futures, family and the world "out there". This retreat is decidedly a form of depression, an illness and we need to acknowledge, accept and seek help from those who are able and willing to..before it is too late.<br /><br />Thank you Lori, for providing Shannon's powerful message, which, I am certain, has touched many.<br />Donnanoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-55023013504082515632012-09-16T11:57:37.090-07:002012-09-16T11:57:37.090-07:00Shannon has been my friend for years now though I ...Shannon has been my friend for years now though I am much older than she is and far into my recovery. I see how far she has come and the change in her perception of herself and life. She has much to live for. Stay angry, it IS powerful. Let it guide you through the depths of your ED and pull you up out and over to breathe again. Life can be so much more peaceful and awareness can be of the beauty and fullness that is so there for you. Step out of your mind.<br />I send my love and perhaps inspiration to all of you and accept yours for myself. We are strong when we join together. xxxAnonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-62286491970987561422012-09-14T08:24:27.733-07:002012-09-14T08:24:27.733-07:00I couldn't have said it better myself! Thanks!...I couldn't have said it better myself! Thanks!<br />HikerRDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15170145903147301280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-60608713814720666522012-09-14T08:23:57.875-07:002012-09-14T08:23:57.875-07:00To PTC and Anonymous: Yes, your mind can mess with...To PTC and Anonymous: Yes, your mind can mess with you and fear can even convince you that this life you're living is a good one. You can get so used to the bad state you're in that it seems just fine. Unfortunately, it often takes renourishment before you are even aware of just how bad off you really are. Perhaps reading blogs like this will give you a bit of insight that there really is a way out and that you do deserve much better. There are better ways to manage anxiety and deal with depression and life's difficulties--even if you haven't yet experienced this.HikerRDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15170145903147301280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-9762569671805256412012-09-14T08:20:00.599-07:002012-09-14T08:20:00.599-07:00The first step is hating it all. The next step is ...The first step is hating it all. The next step is to inch toward seeing that your worse fears don't come true as you break your own rules. Set a limit on your exercise by scheduling it when you have less time, or choose a less intense activity to start. That is, if you are medically stable enough to be exercising at all. See this older post on exercise, too: http://dropitandeat.blogspot.com/2010/07/daily-exercise-is-must-or-so-you-think.htmlHikerRDhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/15170145903147301280noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-66966163032919608502012-09-13T13:16:10.476-07:002012-09-13T13:16:10.476-07:00This made me cry. So powerful. Comining out of a...This made me cry. So powerful. Comining out of a relapse and it was so something I needed to read.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-4543900112374496042012-09-11T18:35:19.618-07:002012-09-11T18:35:19.618-07:00Thank you to the writer of this post for giving vo...Thank you to the writer of this post for giving voice to my thoughts. I am glad, like Lori said, that you are angry. It shows that you know that you deserve more and better. You (and me) deserve a life that is free from the binds of this horrid disease. We deserve to fill our brain with thoughts of pleasure and hobbies and caring about ourselves and others. We dont deserve the obsessive counting, checking, weighing, searching out bones, exercising, guilt, insanity of wanting everything and nothing all at once. We have to remind ourselves, contrary to what ED tells us and to what we even grow to believe, that this is NOT the life we want, the life we deserve, normal, or ok. Even those readers that said they feel "good" this way ... of course you deserve relief, but you also deserve health - mental and emotional. And dont let Ed or yourself fool you into thinking you can have both. Ed and health do not live in the same body. And if you really dont care that you could die, then perhaps depression is still lurking in your life. Recovery is impossibly hard! But I hear it is possible so I am going to believe that and keep working...supposedly I am worth it! ;)Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-18312436533535402242012-09-11T15:42:13.893-07:002012-09-11T15:42:13.893-07:00Wow, thank you so much. I really needed to read t...Wow, thank you so much. I really needed to read this. I have been in higher levels of treatment and now once again need to regain some weight lost and ED is very loud. This was encouraging to read and I believe it! Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-63833449879880530662012-09-11T02:03:19.965-07:002012-09-11T02:03:19.965-07:00I don't know. No offense intended to the autho...I don't know. No offense intended to the author, because this is very well written, but it induced a series of eye rolls in me. All that stuff about you'll die, yadda yadda? I don't freaking care.<br /><br />I DO feel better this way. It is the only thing which makes a sizeable dent in my severe, treatment-resistant depression and anxiety. I have drive, energy, spark and provided you don't step between me and my ED, I'm even a nicer person. In other words, I am ME again.<br /><br />So screw it. I deserve relief from depression.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-25744569800809513622012-09-10T16:52:36.045-07:002012-09-10T16:52:36.045-07:00I really enjoyed reading this post, even though if...I really enjoyed reading this post, even though if I kind of disagree, yet agree with it. I DO like my body this way. I don't like my body with more on it. I'm not trying to fool myself by saying that, it's true. There's a lot more I could say, but I'm stopping myself.PTChttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05377666179155825301noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-44219052698616547562012-09-10T13:42:57.910-07:002012-09-10T13:42:57.910-07:00I hate that I put lettuce away because I am afraid...I hate that I put lettuce away because I am afraid my salad is too big. I hate that I am now weight restored but I am terrified to stray at all from my "safe" eating plan. I hate that I drive myself into the ground with exercise because that is the only way I can justify eating. I hate that I feel like people are judging me and that I have to always leave food on my plate so I don't look like a pig. I hate it all but I am too afraid to stop.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-14246078149578718292012-09-10T13:25:17.596-07:002012-09-10T13:25:17.596-07:00Really interesting and powerful. Funny as speaking...Really interesting and powerful. Funny as speaking as someone who comes from the fat end of eating disorders the goal is different - mine was to hide, yours to be pure - but the fuel is the same - denial of the self. Let's both chuck that crap away hey? XClaire https://www.blogger.com/profile/12150226708200368725noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1449641905298601952.post-37732893105939456382012-09-10T11:11:04.679-07:002012-09-10T11:11:04.679-07:00A very wise therapist specializing in ED once said...A very wise therapist specializing in ED once said to me, "Anger is energy." Oh, yes. The energy here is raw, brutally honest, determined.<br />I reiterate Lori's thanks to Shannon. Know you have people, even those you've never met, rooting for you - for the rich, full, healthy life you deserve.Susanhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/10088514691621468105noreply@blogger.com